沈大王的人间纪实录

第150章 我不存在,真的吗?(1 / 1)

(o?д?)o我想知道,我真的不存在吗?我真的也许我本来就是一个不存在的人,因为我的存在感本来就很低,因为我希望的是我本来也就不存在,因为我们都不存在,所以我们就不用进入彼此的世界了,我们只要有我们自己的世界就够了,因为你就是一个不存在的人,你不见了,那不是很好吗?你再也不用第一人称思考问题了,发生在你身上的所有的事都是不值得一提的,你就可以用第三人称说话了,他他做了什么,他干了什么,又跟我有什么关系呢?因为一切都与我无关,这世上所有的事都与我无关,好像我生,死都无所谓了,你觉得真有这样的人吗?以为自己不存在,那他不存在,那现在的他又是什么呢?⊙_⊙我有点迷惑了,也许我真的不存在,我失去了语言的能力,一个人的时候连话都不会说了,我再也不会说好听的话了,也许我本来就不会说好听的话,也许我连实话都不会说了,我不知道我的存在是为了什么,因为我本来就不存在,我只是一团意识流,连我自己都是想象出来的,我这一堆碳基细胞动物,我发了,羡慕那些二次元的宝宝,好像欣欣今天对我说了一句话,在说你像一道光一样,突然就消失了,他说我消失的好快,他用一道光来形容我,我刚刚去跟梨子玩游戏,今天还跟星星拍照了,星星还发了朋友圈,哼!他说他的头上长角了,呵呵,然后我说这是一个小女巫送给你的礼物哦,发现每天星星都好搞笑,他不喜欢狼尾巴,每天我都给他带上蓝尾巴,他好像挺开心的样子,因为他每天都睡好多觉,他好像一天都在睡觉,他好像我就是每天都睡不醒啊,明明都睡到下午了,还是睡不醒,但是为什么呀?听说是14号的血月的影响,难道真的会有好多个月亮出来吗?我也搞不懂呀,我们会变成彼此的光,有一天我会变成谁呢?我会变得不存在,变得不在乎,变得不想说话,变得没有欲望,但是我好像连吃的欲望都没有了,好像对任何事情都不感兴趣,好像也没什么欲望,唉,为什么呢?好像这么多的事情我都没有做好,又好像都做好了,因为无论我做什么事情都好像没有得到任何的肯定的话语,而且我也不喜欢这些事情。那我为什么要来这里?所以我的意思是可以我自己控制的呀,我自己可以控制我自己想做什么,但是我就是什么都不想做,一直躺在这里,我不知道我在干什么,我也不知,我不知道什么是时间了好像什么东西也没有在流动只是一天一天的,我也不知道一天是什么了,只是到时间了,习惯了,然后该干啥干啥,除了吃饭睡觉洗澡以外,其他的时间都在玩手机,不知道玩些什么,然后玩手游玩恋与深空,然后签到签到,一直签到签到签到,我知道我真的不存在了,从现在开始我好像真的不存在了,但我好像没有什么感觉了,对任何人都淡淡的,但我还是讨厌人类,看我的样子,我讨厌一个人,为什么我就想逃跑,我就想一个人呆着,我不想看见你们,我只想一个人呆着

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