沈大王的人间纪实录

第73章 我从来没有把别人当过朋友(1 / 1)

在我的印象里,我好像从来没有真正把一个人类当过朋友(*′?`)是真的吗?(o?д?)o高中的时候是有几个朋友可以说说话,但也就是说说话而已,从来也没有说过什么心里话⊙_⊙我可能就只是以为他们在我身边陪着我而已,就这样,我又想起那个时候高中的时候没事干,闲着无聊,给人家写情书,最后别人还把我骗到那个主席台的后面,说有人要跟我告白,哎呀,真好笑,你说我傻不傻呢?我长得又不漂亮,是吧?家里也没点钱,人家看中你什么呢?你不觉得小时候的自己很傻吗?觉得自己可以被爱,你后来才发现被爱是要资本的,你要有资本,人家才会爱你(*/?\*)所以我追求的爱是什么?他只爱我这个人⊙_⊙可惜这个世界上没有人会爱你的(?????)除了我自己,我一个人出门,我一个人去万达,我一个人吃关东煮,我一个人去面包店门口吃,试吃,我有感觉到很快乐,我内心无无比的不满足,我内心无比的嫉妒,我嫉妒你们有喜欢的人,有爱的人,有可以撒野的人,我没有,我没有,我一个都没有,所以在我表弟给我介绍男朋友的时候,我觉得那就是救赎,我从来没有过朋友,我觉得他可以跟我过一辈子,我他妈就是个恋爱脑,我在男的眼里就是那种很属于那种很容易推倒的那种人,他们觉得我不值钱,我我不值得被爱,他们觉得我不值得被爱,但是这只能是他们觉得而已,往后余生向人民币毛泽东看看齐,向厚度看齐,我他妈是有多缺爱啊,我他妈想随便找一个人做一下(′~`;)这他妈就是我喜欢的单身人生吗?他妈的,36岁了,过年37岁了,再卖两两部,40岁了,再过个年,妈的,又说我50岁了,70岁了,他妈的该入墓地,了,估计我我们这一代人以后估计就直接撒河里了,搞笑的一辈子,不想出门,在家里啥也不想干,刷手机刷的,我他妈的想死(*`へ′*)想找个工作吗?我想去万达买衣服,但是我又嫌太远,待在家里一天又没事情干(′-ω-`)胡思乱想的一天,倘若我这辈子再不接触一个多余的人,我觉得我的人生就会缺乏很多的新鲜感,连冒险都没有了,我觉得人生又没有意义了,但是我又不喜欢接触人,我觉得我真的是个很纠结的人,所以所以我就是要当那种处在闹市里,又喜欢安静的一个人呆着的那种人,闹中取静,没有关系了,只要我坚持,明天总会到来的,只要我喜欢,浪费时间,时间总会过去的,更何况时间这个东西根本不存在呢,这世界上根本就不存在时间,我们只是存在在这个世界的对立面而已,有可能我根本不存在这一切,都是我的幻觉,我为什么要这么在意这一切呢?你们在我眼里什么都不是,只要没有给我带来利益,你们就不存在,我可以直接让你在我的世界消失,或者让你滚蛋(* ̄m ̄)

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